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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 19.06.2025 12:05

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She was in good health!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I never cut or harmed myself..

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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But ive been too sick for many years..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Its year 2041, and president Hunter Biden has ordered every republican who sweared at him to be arrested and shot. I am on my way to the death row listening to the cheer of the Liberal mob chanting death death death. How can I escape?

I was 9 years of age.

My life is so biszare .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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This is soul school!.

All the time i was locked up.

So whats the point in blame.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Put me off passion for life!!

I was very sick at this time too.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

We all went to grammer schools

I said to her

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

(And it was in our own minds.)

She wouldn,t have been !

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Comes on , in middle age.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

As i do to all so called friends.?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Ive learnt so much.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He knew the spot.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I could never make a relationship work though!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I will be 64.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

So, i spoilt her more .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He resisted the act ,that day.

It was going to be , some day.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She found it foreign!.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

What did i know ?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We were not on the streets..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Who then, do I blame.?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I waited trembling.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I don,t even have a pension.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Especially a lifetime of it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I have no regrets .

She loved him until the end.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But it wasn’t much.

When she asked me how she looked .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But, we were locked up after school.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I think the readers, may guess!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was scared of men, in general

Would this be the day?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

And i lived it daily.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She married twice! .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I write beautiful poetry .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Im still living with it.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One cannot live in the past .

I was seconnd youngest,

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.